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the Obsession Chronicles

If the Angel decides to come it will be because you have convinced her, not by tears but by your humble resolve to be always beginning; to be a beginner.


posted 23 October 2005
ten five, 4:37 pm (self-portrait)
ten five, 4:34 pm -- photo by Sienna M Potts, North of Here, 5 October 2005

i sit to write after 2 days curled up in bed thrown down by the sick monster because, as if the why matters, i went out to the desert for 3 weeks & came back to the foggy coast where the weather has changed & Fall is Here * & yet my mood is undimmed still lifted * i am utterly totally endlessly in love * to the point where it is obvious & a few friends have told me i'm glowing * to the point where i am in love with everything i see & how not? i live off figs & strawberries, goat cheese & carrots from the markets, then when i go for ice cream with the folks i get christened with my first taste of candy cap mushroom ice cream (delicious!) *

last week, on the very brink of the Change, with it so thick that as soon as i opened the back door i could smell the rain rich in the air for the first time since June, i walked from my house out to the edge of the earth, especially so in the grey weathers, with the anything-but-pacific ocean below & the ominous rollicking sky above * i sucked in as much of that moist air as i could, sending my eyes out urgently from horizon to feet & on around the back way, falling out of the sky into the ocean, surfing back up again, landing on rainbow headland grasses * what i am so in love with that it hardly even matters what exactly i'm in love with is after all a place (sorry, friends, none o' that good gossip here) so it is imperative to worship this place under my feet right now, for all of my years, just as heartily *

i know, i know, you have to be just this side of crazy to read me right now... i can't write this feeling this journey these revelations in any kinda way that makes sense in any kinda easy way * but you know i have to try 'cause trying to write it all down is deep in this critter-nature & this here ride spinning me 'round & 'round just keeps getting better & betterer so that i must at least offer to share the gifts *

petroglyphs -- photo by Sienna M Potts, Newspaper Rock, 30 September 2005
slide shows at tyV:   return with new eyes   *   ten twenny   *   beyond Canyonlands
ten five, 4:45 pm -- photo by Sienna M Potts, North of Here, 5 October 2005
ten five, 4:45 pm

i know that there are one or 2 Out There who understand me when i say that i am in love with a place, even when i say that it is a place that leads to another place that isn't a place like physical ones, but a newer much older place where crazy talk like mine is all you can use when you try to talk about it... the beauty of the mess is that the ones who have been there understand eachother & now that's a whole new ride mmmnn-hmmnnn *

my horrorscope this week
(for the week of 20 October 2005):
"Honey, This Mirror Isn't Big Enough for the Two of Us," is the title of a song by the band My Chemical Romance. If you'd like to place yourself in alignment with cosmic rhythms, you should say the exact opposite of that to someone you care about -- something like this: "Honey, this mirror is big enough for the two of us, and I want us to gaze into it together." In other words, enlist a loved one to join you in taking an inventory of your relationship. Study how you fit together, and brainstorm about how you can make your connection work even better.

angel cards i just drew:
brotherhood   simplicity   synthesis

what the tarot says
trust the forces that have taken care of you up to this point

how'm i doing:
i've been looking in the cosmic mirror, all cleaned off & fresh from my river journey, firmly swept off my feet onto the next phase of the Journey i've been walking all along * & o lucky me, i am not alone, not at all alone, even if i am on my own for this particular skinny-dip * there are forces here & i am trusting them as i always have, letting them take care of me as they always have & i am trying to return the gift at the same time (i give all that i can be) ... life is good as it always has been ...
my favorite crushes:
that Green River & those red cliffs *
not to mention all the in betweens *

what i'm watching:
red cliffs *

what i'm reading
The Last Cheater's Waltz *
How to Be Good *
some lovely tidbits with a title yet to be defined, if ever *

ten four, 5:08 pm (jungle boy) -- photo by Sienna M Potts, Caspar Headlands, 4 October 2005
ten four, 5:08 pm (jungle boy)
ten four, 5:08 pm (print necklace)
ten five, 4:35 pm (print necklace) -- photo by Sienna M Potts, North of Here, 5 October 2005
in my dreams
i fly with a friend from a long time ago to some city i can't place, East, who knows where * i want to get my hair cut so i ask the friend where i should go * she leads me in to some glitzy place totally not like me, whispers with & tips the dominitrix at the door then disappears * the door dom takes me into the maze & stops at a beautiful lady like a goddess statue & the door dom presses me facefirst into the lush bosom of the goddess lady 3 times & i'm thinking 'all this to trim my hairs?'
slide shows at tyV:   return with new eyes   *   ten twenny   *   beyond Canyonlands
my answers to those questions he always asks on Inside the Actors Studio are as follows (today):
my most favorite word is grok *
my least favorite word is sick *
what turns me on is the deep dive *
what turns me off is closed doors *
a sound i love is Canada geese honking *
a sound i hate is my own voice angry *
my favorite curse word is c*cksucker *
a profession other than my own that i would love to try is writer *
a profession i would hate to try is agent *
if i end up at the pearly gates & there is a god to greet me, i would want her to say, "the concert's down by the river, m'dear" *
ten five, 4:34 pm -- photo by Sienna M Potts, North of Here, 5 October 2005
ten five, 4:34 pm


leftie ten eleven, 4:05 pm (work prints) -- photo by Sienna M Potts, Caspar, 11 October 2005
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