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the Obsession Chronicles

what's important?

i have a real rant today, be warned *

what's been driving me crazy for the last couple of weeks is how often i have to put off doing something creative, or even just caring for my art projects, because i have something "more important" to do * it's been bad lately because of the move *

packing & getting down here & into my new house (2 steps unfortunately, separated by some agonizing limbo time, which i include in the reckoning) sucked up the best part of 3 weeks -- & i'm not even talking unpacked & living like the settled, walls art-hung, cabinets dish-endowed, homey type individual that i believe myself to be * i'm talking livable -- & it's starting to get on my nerves * boxes in almost every room, even the bathroom * unpacking is more important the art (most of the time) but not more important than work (although i'd love to argue with that rule too) *

work is obviously, indisputably important * i still can't call it my "real work" * in the end some of it is pretty petty * a little change here, an announcement there, once in a while a fun project to tackle * don't get me wrong -- i do love my work * it's just that i love working only as much as i have to & in high-stress times like this i feel like i'm working exactly that so i don't need any more * maybe i sound lazy but time is much more valuable to me than money is * i like money, sure -- it makes life more comfortable & sometimes more fun too * but i don't like it so much i want to spend more time making it than enjoying it (or enjoying the things that i have without needing to carry it) *

the "real work" to me is the creative work * the bits of my life that i hope will last (as long as there's anybody to enjoy them) are the things like the photographs, the poems, these pages * i am a good girl & i do the "more important" things, to a point * i know there will always be something that's "more important" than say organizing, naming & backing up my photographs * more important in the short term anyway * looking at life from the long term perspective it's much more important to me to keep my photographs in safe, easy-to-use shape than it is to have all my dishes in their proper places * but i've only scribbled bits of an idea that's working itself into a poem or a story or maybe a whole new way of looking at life * i haven't had time to share much of anything (one of these weeks i'll put up 10 slide shows at once), or even answer emails *

really there's nothing more important than walking out across the headlands & down to the beach with the Pip *

• house finch
• goldfinch
• song sparrow
• stellar's jay
• scrub jay
• rufous hummingbird
• black-capped chickadee
• chestnut-backed chickadee
• red-breasted nuthatch
• downy woodpecker
• mourning dove