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the Obsession Chronicles

"Life itself is the proper binge."

posted 31 August 2004

what's important?

i have a real rant today, be warned *

what's been driving me crazy for the last couple of weeks is how often i have to put off doing something creative, or even just caring for my art projects, because i have something "more important" to do * it's been bad lately because of the move *

packing & getting down here & into my new house (2 steps unfortunately, separated by some agonizing limbo time, which i include in the reckoning) sucked up the best part of 3 weeks -- & i'm not even talking unpacked & living like the settled, walls art-hung, cabinets dish-endowed, homey type individual that i believe myself to be * i'm talking livable -- & it's starting to get on my nerves * boxes in almost every room, even the bathroom * unpacking is more important the art (most of the time) but not more important than work (although i'd love to argue with that rule too) *

hurtle 7 (self-portrait)
hurtle 7 (self-portrait) -- photo by Sienna, Caspar Headlands, 28 August 2004

work is obviously, indisputably important * i still can't call it my "real work" * in the end some of it is pretty petty * a little change here, an announcement there, once in a while a fun project to tackle * don't get me wrong -- i do love my work * it's just that i love working only as much as i have to & in high-stress times like this i feel like i'm working exactly that so i don't need any more * maybe i sound lazy but time is much more valuable to me than money is * i like money, sure -- it makes life more comfortable & sometimes more fun too * but i don't like it so much i want to spend more time making it than enjoying it (or enjoying the things that i have without needing to carry it) *

self-portrait 15 (mind meld, for Donna)
self-portrait 15 (mind meld) -- photo by Sienna, Chapman Point, 27 August 2004

the "real work" to me is the creative work * the bits of my life that i hope will last (as long as there's anybody to enjoy them) are the things like the photographs, the poems, these pages * i am a good girl & i do the "more important" things, to a point * i know there will always be something that's "more important" than say organizing, naming & backing up my photographs * more important in the short term anyway * looking at life from the long term perspective it's much more important to me to keep my photographs in safe, easy-to-use shape than it is to have all my dishes in their proper places * but i've only scribbled bits of an idea that's working itself into a poem or a story or maybe a whole new way of looking at life * i haven't had time to share much of anything (one of these weeks i'll put up 10 slide shows at once), or even answer emails *

really there's nothing more important than walking out across the headlands & down to the beach with the Pip *

my horrorscope this week
(for the week of 26 August 2004):
Last June, a rickety raft carrying 42 destitute African refugees washed ashore on a posh nude beach in Spain. Visualize that scene, Aries. It will serve as an apt metaphor for your life in the coming week. A forlorn, vulnerable part of your life will come face to face with a luxurious, beautiful part. And what will unfold in the wake of this juxtaposition? Let's hope it will be similar to the scene in Spain, where the naked sunbathers leaped into action and got help and care for the refugees.

angel cards i just drew:
just found them today, in one of the boxes i was s'posed to open right away but never needed until i freaked out & got rid of most of the boxes in my office-- what does that tell me? the angel cards are prolly the most important thing in there
education    trust    healing    love

how am i doing?
i am still thinking of the way the headlands make me feel insignificant in a good way... this place is the luxurious, beautiful part & i guess i must be the forlorn, vulnerable part but i certainly don't feel that way today!

tree 9: look up -- photo by Sienna, Caspar Creek, 25 August 2004
tree 9: look up
my favorite onscreen crushes:
the boys
& the girls

the best movies i've seen lately:
Prison (wonderfully bad) *
L' Auberge espagnole *
The Hobbit
(animated, Arthur Rankin Jr, 1978) *
Lord of the Rings
(animated, Ralph Bakshi, 1978) *
Hildalgo *

movies i want to see next:

what music is playing:

what i am reading:

status of the house:
kitchen: ready for guests
bathroom: functional but not unpacked
living room: functional but not ready for guests (only one nice chair for watching tv/fire)
dining room: a staging area with all the photo boxes waiting to get sorted out for display (the walls await) & storage (all my negatives in one well-organized place -- what a dream! what i should do is get a fireproof safe & put them in there with all the cds of digi-pics 'cause those are the most valuable thing i own)
office: very workable -- it looks good but there's still work to do on the sewing side
bedroom: my clothes are still in boxes & the walls look pretty empty to me
etc: my big accomplishment this week was digging my compost hole
light 1, 28 August 2004 -- Caspar Headlands, photo by Sienna
light 2, 28 August 2004 -- Caspar Headlands, photo by Sienna
light 1 & 2, 28 August 2004

leftie michael 1 -- photo by Sienna, Chapman Point, 27 August 2004
michael 1
photographing patterns of the rock on a walk on Chapman Point

birds at my feeders this week:
my answers to those questions he always asks on Inside the Actors Studio are as follows (today):
my most favorite word is copse *
my least favorite word is schedule *
what turns me on is irreverence *
what turns me off is sweeping *
a sound i love is waves *
a sound i hate is cars speeding down my tiny road *
my favorite curse word is fokker *
a profession other than my own that i would love to try is artist *
a profession i would hate to try is truck driver *
if i end up at the pearly gates & there is a god to greet me, i would want her to say, "there are some people here waiting for you" *

toss it 20 -- photo by Sienna, Chapman Point, 27 August 2004
toss it 20
pausing for a game of toss it for the eager boy during our Chapman Point walk
(it is always necessary to scramble down to at least one beach if the ocean -- or river -- is near enough)


leftie door frog 2 -- photo by Sienna, 28 August 2004
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