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the Obsession Chronicles

"If you stay open to what's happening, it can improve you
and become a gift."

posted 17 March 2004
happy st. paddy's day!

beauty being more than skin deep

sunlight shining through the trees on the river front
sunlight shining through the trees on the river front: photo by Sienna
when my dad was up i showed him my collection of books by "my boyfriend" as i call him * as in: i wish * as in: in my dreams * as in: that game i love to play, "is that your boy/girlfriend?" only this one's truly gorgeous (the game is a mean one, pointing out the ugliest or goofiest-looking guy/gal around) * anyway, those of you who know me will know i'm talking about Viggo & will be bored already (although you're back here again, now, aren'tcha?), but my point here is not just that i lust after him, but that i also admire, even idolize (& i mean that in the best way: i want to be like) him * i want to write about why i do so & why i think this is one of those rare obsessions for life * it's not that i feel the need to explain -- i don't care at all that a bajillion other women the world over are currently lusting after him (or should i say Aragorn?) too * it's just that my dad mentioned in an email today that i "need to get in line" & i wrote back an entire email about how i can wait & why so i thought i'd share (with you, with my future self) some of those thoughts here *
first of all, i got in line 2 years ago when i happened to see him on a silly movie called 28 Days (he was the super-sexy baseball player/sex addict) -- & i could kick myself for being so late to the party! even then i didn't bother to find out more about him or i would have a couple more of his now out of print books & cd's *
secondly, i can wait 5 or 10 (or 2) years until the masses forget about him * since i like, admire & lust after all of his art, not just his sexy, muddy, reluctant-hero Aragorn (i mean, c'mon, ladies! at least see A Walk on the Moon!), i'll still be watching him when he comes 'round to Seattle or Portland or Idaho where his horses live for poetry readings or art shows & there the line won't be quite so long & i know even now he stays till the very end *
last, but not least, it really doesn't matter if i never meet him because he's inspired me by being himself -- & that's what i'd call a Real Man -- by constantly creating (he must never sleep) in all sorts of mediums -- just for the fun of it * the way i imagine it (& it's got to go something like this 'cause the dude is prolific), he's on set, right? & he's got his camera (which is not digital -- i mean, the story is that he threw the first phone he ever owned out the window & didn't buy another till he moved to LA & his agent made him * he admitted this year that he had to go to a friend's house to watch the Oscars because his family insisted upon it &, obviously, he doesn't own a tv) tucked under his costume or his saddle or somewhere very close at hand * he puts up the pictures he takes all day, along with the poems & scribblings & doodles, all over his mirror so he doesn't have to look at himself & as he sits there he adds to it all continually * Orlando (& i could almost love him for this though that's a band wagon you won't catch me on) said he used to just sit there & stare at Viggo for hours as he drew & wrote all over his journal *

broken tree
a broken tree on the river front walk: photo by Sienna
my dad also mentioned that he's not exactly the stud in "real" (anything on tv being questionable) life that he is with a wig, a sword & some blood on his face * in one or 2 of the many pictures & interviews with him i've seen i don't even think he's attractive, at least not in an accessible, obvious type way * but then he opens his mouth -- aiaiai, it's always the voice that gets me, sexiest piece of a man -- & out comes good-natured humour, humility & his fair share of wisdom (i mean, he speaks English, Spanish, Danish, Lakota, Elvish... so he's already better than most of us, y'ask me) * let's just say i would certainly love to get my fingers into his hair (whether it be greasy or glowing) & i would kiss those usually-bare feet in a second but what i really want is simply to talk with him, just to listen to him * i want to stand in front of one of his paintings, to be in the room when he recites one of his poems (en español, ¡por favor!) * ... & that's why i think i have a chance * when the rest of the world has moved on to the next Orlando, i'll have a book ready to be published by Perceval Press * i mean, Russell Crowe's a hottie & one or two of his songs even have great lyrics but he's got nothing on my boyfriend *

making lists: about this page

last updated 10 January 2004
the stunning movie The Pillow Book is the inspiration for this ever-evolving page of lists * there are lots of links mixed in on my lists -- if i could find a good link on any item, i included it * some links go straight to Amazon.com or the IMDb but watch that bottom status bar because there are some other great links hidden in there * if you're interested in a little history, follow the story behind this page on the one that came before it, otherwise, click on for more rambling words and lists of beloved things -- is that an oxymoron?
the lists below may look the same but they change every time i update the page * not all of them every time, but all of them over time * as it's a new year i'm going to give them another thorough going over, keep my mind moving on to new obsessions, even though i don't completely let go of the old ones *
the 2 spots at top i'll keep -- they're always changing & besides, they please me (i'm the only audience for these pages for all i know, so why not?) * my horrorscope: i'm a woo-woo type, part pagan, so why not revel in it? & the hotties in the movies: what's life without some tasty crushes? i try to keep the list short, but when i really fall for somebody it's usually because of a generous genuine nature & then i never want to take him&her off my list * like Viggo, like Salma * i saw the elvin Cate Blanchett on Inside the Actors Studio & wow... she said "It has to be a generous act" about really giving herself to a performance emotionally, going all out as she does * the generosity of creative expression is one of my favorite concepts, the one i've begun the last 2 years with (see Viggo for last year, & Brezsny for this) * see, it's all connected *

my horrorscope this week
(for the week of 18 March 2004):
For too long, grace has eluded you; you have had to fight your way through life. But now your luck is about to turn; your soul will get the refreshment it needs. To celebrate, imagine you're the one speaking in this poem by Theodore Roethke:
"Near the rose, in this grove of sun-parched,
    wind-warped madrones
Among the half-dead trees, I came upon the
    true ease of myself,
As if another person appeared out of
    the depths of my being,
And I stood outside myself,
Beyond becoming and perishing.
A something wholly other,
As if I swayed out on the wildest wave alive,
And yet was still.
And I rejoiced in being what I was."

angel cards i just drew:
tranformation    adventure    release

how am i doing?
i do rejoice in what i am (as well as wind-warped madrones), but i'm certainly ready for some turning luck & some adventurous transformation!

two trees growing toward eachother on the river walk in Corvallis, Oregon: photo by Sienna
two trees 4
my favorite onscreen crushes:
the boys
& the girls
the best movies i've seen lately:
movies i want to see next:

what music is playing:

what i am reading:

trilliums on the river walk in Corvallis, Oregon -- photo by Sienna
my favorite dream so far this month:
i was with my long-time friend Sarah & we found Viggo's house so we snuck in * he wasn't there & i wasn't expecting him -- i was just happy to be there * i thought i'd like to meet Pilar, his partner at Perceval, not as a way to get to him but because she shares &/or enables his vision * i was sitting on the couch when a bunch of people came in with sounds of revelry * one of them was an old friend Joseph * it's been forever since i've seen him but i was not at all surprised that he should be at the heart of where i wanted to be (actually neither Pilar nor Viggo were in the party so that's not entirely true) * he was drunker than i can imagine him being in real life but we sat on the couch talking delightedly * suddenly i noticed the painting on the wall across from us & it stopped me silent * it was huge, with the deep reds Viggo often uses, obviously his * it was of a family before & after a great loss * in the center were 3 small coffins & to the right was the whole family, then to the left, but high as though they were rising toward the lost ones, was the family that remained * all across the bottom it was pure color, colors becoming the picture as they rose * it sounds dark, & it was -- dark reds & deep blues -- but it was so pure it was magical *

my other favorite dream:
i met my big crush, the little hobbit Billy Boyd who played Pippin's namesake * first he told me "Sienna, you really can't get what you want" & i don't even remember what i told him i wanted but for such a happy-go-lucky type to seem so certainly pessimistic made me really sad * but then he gave me his lucky hat! the rattiest stocking cap i've ever seen, well-loved & obviously lucky so my spirits soared back up & i woke up feeling as if i'd met my guardian angel in another form *

birds at my feeders this week:
  • black-capped chickadee
  • red-breasted nuthatch
  • white-throated sparrow
  • song sparrow
  • house finch
  • goldfinch
  • junco
  • towhee
red building in downtown Corvallis, Oregon: photo by Sienna
red #6
(downtown Corvallis)
my answers to those questions he always asks on Inside the Actors Studio are as follows (today):
  • my most favorite word is kiss
  • my least favorite word is over
  • what turns me on is being outside
  • what turns me off is being inside
  • a sound i love is a beloved voice
  • a sound i hate is the highway
  • my favorite curse word, well... i'll just say i'm with Cate
  • a profession other than my own that i would love to try is architect
  • a profession i would hate to try is fund raising
  • if i end up at the pearly gates & there is a god to greet me, i would want her to say, "good job, girl"

animal friends:
Pippin & Malkmus are loving the gorgeous weather we've been having (i shouldn't mention it! i hear it ends tomorrow & the rain comes back -- not that you'll catch me complaining about that either!) * they spend almost the whole day outside, chasing each other, covering each other in drool & dew, making it hard for me to concentrate 'cause Pip likes to wander off every once in a while, though he is getting really good at coming when i call, i must say * i wish i could get a picture of them playing but i've tried & given up long ago *
Pippin wants a squirrel, March 2004 (photo by Sienna)
Pippin wants a squirrel
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obsessions for life:
tree trunk looks like a hand on the river walk in Corvallis, Oregon: photo by Sienna content


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